I am meeting an old friend for lunch who I haven’t seen in many years. I am nervous but I know it will be good to catch up. I woke up early this morning after a night of crazy dreams. I swear pregnancy puts your dreams on steroids and you end up dreaming of the most random things. I am now sitting in my local café having a chai and avocado toast for breakfast listening to 80’s pop tunes. I sit in gratitude that I am able to live this life. I am able to work from a café or home. I am well and I am carrying our next child. There is so much to be grateful for. Hamish has changed my life for the better. He has showed me what is really important. He showed me how to strip back my ego. To strip back all the things that I thought made me successful in my career. To realise none of it really matters. It doesn’t define me. No one thing or job, title does. I define myself on how I feel when I go to bed at night. Have I shown up and served in that day? Have I shared the love? Have I lived in alignment with my values? These are the few questions I ask. When my ego creeps up and says you should be doing more. I ignore it. It is hard sometimes but I know the path I am on is the right one. I know that even if I have some slight detours I am heading in the write direction. Every word, blog post and step I move forward is on the ‘right’ path.
I love you Hamish.
I Am Still Born 