We made it! One year since you were born still. One year since we got to hold you just after you were birthed into the world. We couldn’t wait for that moment. Even though we knew you would never get to take a breath of air, we knew how much we wanted to meet our son. You have continued to shine your light through both of us. I am inspired daily by your love. I am feeling like I have pieced most of the broken pieces of my heart back together. I cry in love for you more than sadness now. I have so much more deeper connections, not only with your Dad but also with my family and friends. I speak to friends and strangers on a much deeper level now too. I don’t hide from sharing our story as I believe when we open up to others that is where the magic happens. Being vulnerable is a strength that I learned from you Hamish. The moment you were born I had two choices. I could retreat inwards and run away from my reality. The other option was to feel my emotions loud and proud. To share my grief and joy with others. To allow those around me to understand better what I was going through. We all have challenges in our lives that we face at different times. We learn so much from the ones that push us to our limits. I didn’t ask for these lessons. To be honest I thought I had ‘learned’ enough in this lifetime. That attitude has completely been turned upside down. You taught me that we never ever stop learning. We can never hide from pain and suffering it is part of the human experience. What we can do though is embrace it with all that we have. Feel it. Be with it in each moment. Once it passes know that you are stronger for going through it. I surrender to what is now. I am present in my days. I am waiting to feel kicks from our precious rainbow baby. I know how lucky we are to be on this journey again. Now it is with you as a special little angel watching over us.
I Am Still Born 
you have done amazing to write everyday of Hamish life this year. Hamish and I are very proud of you and the amazing positive outlook. You have helped so many others who are dealing with Stillbirth x
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Your are an amazing strong mummy warrior! I thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your story, and for giving me hope, and strength during my sons stillbrith. I hope that I can continue along this path as show as much respect and dignity as you have. To learn about myself and others. To allow myself to be me. There is no doubt in my mind that Hamish is so proud of you xxxx
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