I had a chai with one of my soul sisters this morning. It was so nice to chat and connect. She has a little one on the way shortly. He is actually due to be born around Hamish’s 1st birthday, although he will be coming a little sooner than that. I am in awe of her strength and also trust. There is nothing more you can do that surrender when you are pregnant. Obviously besides eating the right foods, taking pregnancy vitamins and exercise. Our bodies as women are made for this. To nurture our children in our wombs. It is sometimes hard for me to comprehend what happened to Hamish. I know now though that birth and death are two of the same. They are part of the ebb and flow nature. The weird part is when they come together. A death with a birth. Hamish was still born. He was birthed into this world. He just never got to see life outside of my womb. They say a mother is made when a baby is born. When I see these quotes I tend to disagree. A mother is born when a woman is birthed. It is our choice how and when we become a mother. Whether we are mother to an earth child or not doesn’t make us less of a mother. Whether we have carried and then miscarried doesn’t make us less of a mother. Whether our child lived for 5 minutes or 85 years doesn’t make us less of a mother.
Hamish I love you to the moon and back.
I Am Still Born 