As I lay on the grass in the sun I hoped that it would help me feel more grounded. I have been feeling a little off the past few days. I know when I don’t spend much time outside or in nature, it can cause me to a little blah. The sunshine was exactly what I needed. I can’t believe it is winter. I am wearing a t-shirt and I am feeling warm. I look up at the pale blue sky. There is not a cloud in sight. There is a small crescent moon and the sun is shining. I have been following the moon phases and I know we have just come out of a powerful eclipse. I thought once the new moon phase has passed I would start to feel more energy. I have this sense of knowing that everything is going to be ok. I still also have my logic mind pipe up each day and ask ‘What are you doing with your life?’. I don’t know the true answer to that question right now. I have realised that it is completely ok for me to be in limbo. To be figuring things out. I am not used to this feeling but I know there is a reason for me living this way. There needs to be space for new beginnings to occur.
Hamish your Daddy and I love you so much. I hope you can hear us when we say goodnight, I love you before bed each night.
I Am Still Born 