I spent the day reading and relaxing. I am still engrossed in Constance Hall’s book. It is reminding me that anyone can do anything. Constance self published both of her best selling books. She bought a house with the proceeds of her first book and has worked towards giving her family financial stability. I have thought a lot in the passing months about what money really means to me. I call myself a mindful money coach, but what does that actually mean? To me it means I help people have a better relationship with money. I help people focus less on accumulating money to buy stuff and more towards having money to spend time doing the things they love. I believe that financial stress can cause quite a lot of pain in your life. Having a level of security and financial safety can increase your happiness. Being able to put a meal on the table each night and a roof over your head feels good. Being able to cover your bills with no worries also feels good. Being in a constant merry-go-round of credit card repayments, late bill payments and living week to week is no fun. I want to empower more women to not only own they money story but take charge of it. I want to help others live within their means, be mindful with how they spend money and also feel like they are not burdened by their financial situation. I am still figuring out the best way to do this through my coaching and writing.
I had a well paying job that I worked very hard for. The pay off was stress, long hours and working in a very masculine environment. All for my monthly pay check. I didn’t hate my job but I certainly didn’t love it. If I had to look at one more spreadsheet with 3 million formulas I think I was ready to lose my mind. I was always good with numbers. I could calculate things quickly. I was good at getting things done. I was a fast paced finance manager moving from meeting to meeting, crunching our monthly reports from project to project all while trying to make sure my team is on track with their responsibilities. I loved that I had financial security and all my hard work was paying off. What I didn’t realise though is that I kept planning big expensive holidays to make up for all the hard work and stress I was under. I would say to myself it’s ok if I run myself into the ground as I have ‘X’ holiday to look forward too. After giving birth to Hamish I realised that I stayed in this job because of fear. My inner child was so scared of having nothing or ending up in debt again like I was in my twenties that it didn’t want me to leave this safe, secure job. I realised though that fear is just a feeling that I needed to work through. I needed to remind myself that I could work in a business or job that brought me joy. I could use my talents to serve people. I used to believe my job title made me successful. Now I know that is a bunch of BS. I know that I still want a level of financial security but I will not compromise my happiness and live in fear for it.
Hamish I know you will always watch over us and make me feel safe