I am feeling good today. I feel hopeful for everything that is happening in our life. I am present in the moment. It is easy for me to think of the future or go over the past. I am trying my best though to be grateful for each moment. I listened to another one of Oprah’s super soul conversations today and it really struck a chord in my heart. It was with a pro basketball player Jay Williams who was playing for the Bulls until he had a bad motorcycle accident. They were talking about what it is like to reminisce and think of the ghost of ‘what could have been’. His career was over after the accident and he lost his multimillion dollar contract which then led to him spiralling into a deep depression. It made me think of all the times in the past nine months where I thought of what life would be like if Hamish was here. Of how he would be crawling now. Of how he would be eating food and talking by now. All of the milestones that he has missed out on. Going over what could have been is not going to help me though. I will still do it from time to time. I know in my heart though Hamish is up above doing bigger work than he could ever done while being here. I do believe that he will continue to live through Greg and I. His essence will show throughout the work we do and how we contribute to the world. How we communicate with others. How we show love to each other and the rest of the people in our lives.
I love you my boy. I will always listen out for you. I will make you proud.