After a nice Christmas with my family we are having a relaxing day. As relaxing as it can be with my almost two year old niece Larissa. She has been staying with us to have some Aunty and Uncle time. Now she is a big sister there will be a lot of changes for her when she goes home. I have noticed she doesn’t hold back her emotions and she definitely knows what she wants. If she needs to cry she will. If she is sleepy she will let me know. When it comes to food she is very particular. It made me think about how as adults we sometimes lose these traits. The ability to freely express emotions. To be assertive when it comes to what we want. To live our lives in flow and play. When Larissa sleeps for her day time nap she literally wakes and says ‘play’ ‘play’ ‘play’. I want to spend some more time in play. I have loved having her stay with us. I wish for anything that I could have had this time with Hamish to watch him grow up and play. He will be growing up in another place. I just need to trust that this is the way it was meant to be.
Love you always.
I Am Still Born 