For the first 90 days after Hamish was born I cried at least once a day. I allowed the tears to well up and pour out each day freely. In the last few weeks I have cried less. It still comes over me every few days but not as heavy as before. My heart is starting to feel lighter and I think that has a direct correlation between how much I have cried. I have never been a ‘crier’. It is funny that I even label it a thing. Truth is we are all criers. We all have times in our life where things get hard and the shadow takes over. If you need to cry please do. Don’t judge yourself for it either. We can’t always control our emotions nor should we. They flow through us as a direct reaction to how we feel about moments in our lives. I will be forever grateful for the lessons my precious son has given me. How he has opened my heart space, tear ducts and all.
Thank you little one for being my son. I feel so grateful for the nine months we had together and the relationship that will continue to grow for years to come.
I Am Still Born 