Tonight the full moon will be out shining bright. I feel like this moon is nearing an end of a dark cycle of grief for Greg and I. We have both felt really down in the last month. I have however been slowly feeling better each day. I feel like as I become stronger this allows Greg to feel into his grief and emotions. To let go of trying to put on a front. It is ok for us to take time out when we need it. I sometimes feel bad that I have taken time off work. Since always working hard my whole life this time of reflection has been difficult. There is that voice in my head that tells me I should be doing more. The other side of me knows I need this time to repair, grieve and heal.
We don’t get many times in our life to just sit in our emotions. To feel whatever is coming up. I feel like I have always been striving and working hard and sometimes pushing down whatever comes up. Instead of honouring how I feel I will always just push through. I have now embraced this time off. I have embraced this awkward in-between phase of my life. I hope I can follow my intuition and do the things I was meant to. I don’t want to get caught up in living the same life I was six months ago.
Keep giving me strength little one to live my truth.