My monthly moon cycle has arrived. I feel so blessed that my body is getting back into its normal rhythm. I am tired though. I have been trying to rest as much as I can over the last couple of days. I have been trying each day to feel grateful for my health and body. After birth there is so much healing work to be done. Physically and mentally. When you lose your baby it is even harder to be kind to your body. In the weeks after Hamish was born I felt cheated. I felt like my body failed me. The one job it had was to grow and protect my little one and I felt like it failed. I know now it’s not my body’s fault. I know I need to be kinder to myself. I know my body is perfect just the way it is.
I have been making a conscious effort to love and respect all the changes I went through growing my little guy. I am sending love to each part of my changing body as it returns to a new shape. I am particularly working on my womb space. I know it was a safe home for Hamish for nine months. It will also be the home to our future children. I want to heal any hurt and pain I am feeling in this area. I want my future children to feel safe, loved and protected. I have a vision of running some sacral chakra healing circles in the coming months. I am not sure what it will look like but I know something is calling me towards birthing this. I have always loved running workshops and bringing women together. Now is the time I need to trust my intuition and just go with it. Leave my ego behind and stop second guessing myself.
Hamish please give your mamma strength to heal. Please allow her visions come to life.
I Am Still Born 