I’m in bed. It’s midday and that is ok. I have realised more in the last few weeks how I start to judge myself for not doing enough. For sleeping in, for not doing enough exercise or eating the right thing. Overall I am getting up and moving my body most days. Some days I don’t feel like doing too much. Some days I need rest and white space. Some days I need to be still. Not see anyone or anything. Some days I want to look within. Some days I want to read or binge watch random youtube videos and insta stories and that is ok.
My self judgement for what I do and do not do is always going to be there. It just depends on how much I want to listen to that little sometimes loud voice. I will continue to try and honour my intuition each day. I will continue to get up each day feeling grateful. I am not grateful Hamish left me but I am grateful to be here. To have clean water to drink. To have a roof over my head and nourishing food. My basic needs are always met which is more than many in this world have.
Thank you Hamish for allowing me to be softer on myself. To be kinder and more understanding.
I Am Still Born 