Today I finished reading a book called Layla’s Story. It is a true story of love and baby loss. One of the things I have found great comfort in over the passing weeks is to read others stories of baby and pregnancy loss. Each story helps me feel less alone as I navigate these treacherous unknown waters. It has also been helping me understand how to allow my grief to flow. That it’s ok to feel a myriad of emotions each day. It is ok to cry all the tears. It is ok to just be with whatever comes up.
I also went and got my hair dyed and blow dried for the first time in a long time. I almost didn’t recognise my new 2.0 self as I walked out of the salon. It is amazing what a little pampering can do for the soul. Just putting on my active wear and getting out of the house has felt like an achievement some days so getting my hair done felt so good.
I feel super grateful for the space I have right now. I realise that my creativity flows when I have more space. Writing has always been a passion of mine and being able to write each day fills me up. I am going to make sure I continue to leave space. I am very good at overcommitting and filling up my calendar. I am making a promise to myself to continue taking things slowly and ensure there is enough white space in my week to fill myself up. Whether that’s through meditation, writing or just being still.
Hamish you have shown me how much magic there is in stillness and white space.
I Am Still Born 