I did it. I walked into my favourite coffee shop and ordered my regular almond chai latte. I have been putting this off for over a week. To have the strength to see the guys who make my chai each day and talk to them about what happened. I walked in with my head held high. I told them about Hamish and showed them a cute photo of him. They said they have been thinking of us each day since Greg went in and first told them. I am a proud mum and I’m glad I can be open about my story. It just hurts so much to say the words out loud. For some reason writing them isn’t as bad.
I feel relieved now I can go out in public and see people I know and it’s ok. The world isn’t going to come crashing down on me. It’s not going to be this hard forever. I am blessed to have so much support around me. I know each one of my friends and my family are here for me. I realise how much love and support we have. It shouldn’t take an event like this to show that. In the last couple of weeks I have said a lot more ‘I love you’s’ than ever before.
Hamish you are love, light and joy. You have shown me what is important in life, you have taught me to care less about what others think of me and shown me how to love and also receive love even more than I ever could imagine.