It’s 5:27am and the silence is deafening. My motherly instinct tells me to listen out for my babies cries. Instead I lie here in my bed in silence. I look over at Greg peacefully sleeping. I know I am blessed to have him by my side. But where is my Hamish. If only I could bring him back. I would do anything for that.
Becoming a mum was the most joyous thing in my life. Pregnancy for me was a breeze. I woke up each day and spent time getting to know Hamish. I would journal most days about how I was feeling, what I was grateful for and how motherhood was changing me. This tough business chick was changing her priorities. No longer was I constantly striving to achieve. I had chilled out more and wasn’t trying to climb that corporate ladder or push myself in my own business.
I went to prenatal yoga and my PT sessions each week. I took every supplement under the sun and drank countless green smoothies. I made time for rest and for Greg and I to spend lots of quality time together. It’s almost like Hamish was preparing us for what was to come. While I was pregnant our relationship grew stronger. We opened up more and we were more honest with each other. We were the most excited parents you have ever seen.
Hamish we are so blessed to be your parents. You have touched so many lives already and I know you will continue to for many years.
I Am Still Born 