I don’t know what to say or do to take the pain away. At times I look at the sky and think why did you leave me. I look at the amazing woman next to me whom I am lucky to call my wife and want to take away her pain everyday but I can’t, I just can’t.
I try to make you’re mummy laugh everyday so I can see her amazing smile, to ease her pain, it works for while but I see it in her eyes that she hurts everyday. I have thought of you each day and I try and forget the pain, to get on with it as people expect us to. I try to tell myself it’s alright, forget it all and get on with life. Don’t you feel bad or moan as you can’t be miserable forever.
I look at a photos of you or of from when you were in you’re mummy’s tummy and it reminds me of the love and happiness in our lives. I miss you and I can’t do anything about it. I wish you were in my arms making your mummy smile, for her to see us both together.
One day I will meet you again and see how you have grown and become an amazing person. I look forward to it each day to just look into you’re eyes and say I love you my son.