I woke up feeling peaceful. It’s Hamish’s Birthday party today and I can’t wait to celebrate with our loved ones. I am excited for his party. A part of me is sad but I know he is watching down on us. We have Jill my sis in law and my friend Lauren and her little son Liji staying with us. It’s nice to have our home full of love. We had a nice breakfast at home and then got the platters ready. I iced the whale cake that I made Hamish. It felt good to be able to throw him a party to celebrate all the love he has brought into our lives. While today may have some sadness, it is still so full of joy. We have our precious little bub on the way. We have our angel son looking down on us. Greg and I are closer than ever and I really thank Hamish for that. I have more meaningful relationships with my friends and family. We are all a little bit closer. I wish it didn’t take Hamish for this to happen, at the same time I am so grateful for him. So grateful for the nine months he was here. So grateful for how the last year has unfolded. There have been dark days and hard times. Overall though he has made our lives richer and more love filled.
I love you
I Am Still Born 