The tears come today. I sat in meditation this morning and I felt my heart swell with love. I miss Hamish so much. I think I am starting to feel some movement from bub. It’s pretty much a year to the day when I think Hamish would have passed away. We had a check up on the Wednesday then on Saturday we knew he was gone. He left peacefully some time between Thursday and Friday. I am pretty sure I know the exact moment. It is a strange thing to look back on. I wish I could of saved him. There was nothing I could have done though. We were having weekly check ups. I was moving each day, eating well and sending him so much love. He knew how much he was loved. I want this little bub to feel that same love. No matter what happens their time in my womb will always be cherished. Hamish’s little home for nine months is now safely bringing another little soul into the word. It’s nourishing them each day and keeping them warm. I think of my bub often. I sometimes worry if they are ok. I know though deep down that this bub is coming home with us. We will get to have the joy of their earthly presence outside of my womb.
Please keep us all safe Hamish. I know your love is still pouring down from above.