I went to a café by a local ferry wharf this morning to work and have breakfast. It is good to check out somewhere new and be close to the water. I’m sitting inside which I am thankful for as there are some seagulls flying around trying to eat everyone’s food outside. My motivation has been wanning the past few weeks. I haven’t felt like doing too much. I know my energy will return soon. They say once the placenta kicks in fully you start to feel better. I hope this is the case. I have been planning our trip away in a few weeks and I am really looking forward to that. A kind soul sister has offered us her holiday house for a few nights on the beach then we are driving all the way up the east coast to Brisbane to stay with Greg’s sis and family. It will be nice for us to have this little trip as we both need some rest and relaxation together. I feel like the hardest thing when you lose a child is how it affects you both as individuals but also as a couple. There is anger, blame and so much sadness at first. You have to come together and share how you are feeling, otherwise you can end up feeling like you don’t know where each other are at. I feel like we have learnt a lot about each other these past eleven months. It has brought us so much closer. There have been times though when it has felt like it has done the opposite. We can’t wait to meet our next little miracle. When they arrive we will be the most committed, loving parents and we are so grateful to have this opportunity again.
I love you my babies