I went to a friends Baby shower today. I didn’t really think about it too much. I feel like it is less triggering than a 1st birthday party would be right now. I met some new mums there that had just had their bubs. It was hard talking to them about my situation. I don’t like not telling people, at the same time you never know how someone will react. It was ok though and the love I got in the room was so appreciated. I am so excited for all my pregnant friends. I wish them the most safest pregnancy and labour. I don’t have huge fears but now I know what can go wrong I always let out a sigh of relief when I hear a baby has arrived safely. I am not waiting for the worst to happen I am just more realistic now. My intuition tells me that our baby is going to come home with us. My intuition tells me to trust my body. To be present on this pregnancy journey. To trust that all is well. I am going to do my best to continue on this way. I am going to a pregnancy after loss group next week and I am excited for that. I love meeting other mums and dads on this journey. I know we have got each others backs.
I love you buddy