I am sitting in a beautiful café overlooking one of my favourite local beaches. It is a warm sunny winters day. I spent some time sitting on the rocks, soaking up the morning sun and just listening to the water crash below me. I feel so grateful in this moment. I look over to the sand and I cant wait to be playing there with our little one next year. Making sandcastles and going for lots of swims. I have been feeling a little down the past few days. Yesterday I stayed inside most of the day and I didn’t feel like doing much after the scan. Today I knew I needed to get out of the apartment and ground myself. I know I feel more energised when I spend time in nature. I also feel like a bit congested from this cold. I juiced some fresh oranges this morning and I am doing my best to make sure that I can kick it before it gets any worse. I have been so lucky this winter as I haven’t been sick once. I am listening to my body though and if it needs a little more rest right now that is what I will give it.
I thought of you this morning. How you made me a mother, how you turned my life upside down for the better. I love you.
I Am Still Born 