I am officially 13 weeks today. I feel a little tired but mainly because I think I am getting a bit of a cold. I decided today would be dedicated to rest. I had such a big weekend and need to take it easy. I have massive fear of missing out on anything and I know I pushed it a bit these past few days. I am not very good at saying no so it is something I am working on. Also setting boundaries around my time. Knowing that if I have a big day I probably wont feel like going out for a late dinner. I always want to make the most out of each day. I want to feel like I am not wasting a minute. I know my meditation practice helps me slow down. I went back into my silent practice this morning. I let the thoughts drift through as I sat in the warmth of my living room. I have a couple of special cusions I sit on. I am also very close to Hamish when I meditate at home. I have his urn and alter with beautiful crystals surrounding him right next to me. I haven’t thought much about what I want to do with his ashes. For now he is staying home with us.
Hamish you are so loved
I Am Still Born 