We are celebrating my sisters birthday tonight and I decided to bake a birthday cake to also reveal the gender to my family. It is an exciting time and I am grateful to share this moment with them. The anticipation of waiting for the cake to be cut was so funny. My niece in particular kept saying ‘Cake, Cake, Cake’. I think though as it was mainly because she wanted to eat some. I felt so much joy tonight. I felt so much love in that room. We were at the old Chinese restaurant I used to frequent in my childhood. It was surreal being back there again. I spent lots of time cuddling my smallest niece who is only seven months old. I love spending time with her. She doesn’t smile often, tonight I managed to get lots of smiles out of her! I guess it depends on her mood. She is a deep thinker and really takes her surrounding in. I can’t wait to see the personality of our little one. I connected with Hamish lots before he left us. I knew he was warm, generous and loving. This baby is encouraging me to have more stillness in my life, to dive deeper into meditation and to ground. This baby loves it when I am sitting on the grass or a rock in the sun. It is amazing how we can tune in to our unborn children before they come. I will continue to notice and take in signs my baby and body is giving me.
I love you Hamish. Thank you for sharing your love with me. I can feel it each day.