Sundays always remind me of Hamish. I woke up this morning and went to the markets to get our fresh produce for the week. I love lazy Sundays where there is no place to be or go. I ate a nourishing brunch of delicious grilled broccolini and corn fritters. We then headed home to relax. I am tired after a rather late night. I have an afternoon nap and remind myself, that it’s ok to keep taking things slowly. The pace of my life has changed dramatically. This time last year I was working around a ten hour day and then spending every waking hour on the weekends ‘doing something’. I like how our life is a little slower now. I like that I have time to breathe more. I love how I can eat slowly. I have the concentration to finish a book, to watch a movie. I am not in a rush to get somewhere or see someone. I am going to do my best to keep this pace of living. What I think it truly comes down to is protecting my time and energy. Valuing it more and knowing I don’t have to be everything to everyone. That is one of the biggest lessons I learnt from Hamish. It is ok to take time out to fill up my cup first. It is ok to put my self care first. I am a better mother, wife and friend when I do this.
I love you my boy.