My heart feels lighter today. I am looking forward to cuddles from my two nieces. They light up my day whenever I am around them. My two year old niece Larissa’s personality is shining through as she can communicate more with her words. I am so present when we spend time together. My heart feels full of love when I am around them. I also went for coffee with my mum today. It was nice to connect with her on a different level with just the two of us. I know her heart aches for me. I know she is still very sad from losing her first grandson. I also know everything is going to be ok. I know Hamish is looking down over all of us. I am grateful for the time we spend together. Things haven’t always been easy between us. Each conversation I feel like I get to know her better. During my childhood I sometimes found it hard to connect as she didn’t want to open up to us. Now being a mother myself I have more empathy for what it was like for her bringing up four children. How that motherly love knows no bounds. I know she would do anything for us if she could. I know how much she wants to see us all happy in our lives.
Hamish I love you to the moon and back
I Am Still Born 