Tonight was spent flying upside down and trying to navigate my way around the yoga hammock in my aerial class. I turned up and the teacher looked at me a little funny. She asked if ‘I knew this was an advanced class?’ ‘No I didn’t realise that’ I replied. For the next hour I walked, jumped, flipped and inverted my body in several crazy ways. I tried my best but I knew I shouldn’t push it too much. I am one of those people that when I try something new I want to be really good at it. Like straight away. I know that practice makes perfect and I need to keep practicing my technique. Quite a bit of aerial yoga is also focussed on upper body strength which I don’t have much of. I am working on it though each week I have been getting stronger. As it comes closer to Hamish’s nine month anniversary I am feeling like I am closer to my normal self again. I can wear my skinny jeans and do a little more than I could before. It took nine months to grow him and it has taken around nine months to feel like my body is almost back to where it was strength wise. I feel like my mental wellness has improved with my physical wellness. The strength I now have from regular training and moving my body each day has served me well.
Hamish I love you so much. I am grateful I got to carry you in my womb for nine months.
I Am Still Born 