Self care is so important to me now. I always thought if I had time to do something nice once in a while like go for a massage it was a special treat. Now I schedule time for self care in each day and week. It may not always be a massage it could be as simple as having some time to mix some essential oils up to make a moisturiser for my body, sit and read a good book for a couple of hours, have an extra long shower or a sleep in. Today I went to yoga in the morning and then we had a couples massage booked in. It was so nice. I was so grateful that we could go together and be treated to a relaxing hour of bliss.
We then had a seafood feast at our friends place. I am so grateful for the meal and love we have from our friends. I am grateful for everyone that has cooked for us, sent us love and prayers, thought of us, sent a card or a message. I have never felt so much love in my life since having Hamish. It made me realise something I had been holding on to from childhood. The belief that you have to give something in order to get something in return. I know this isn’t true for me anymore. I know that it doesn’t always have to be a two way transaction. You can give freely to others without expectation of anything in return. You can also receive in the same way. I was always good at giving but not so much at receiving.
I love you Hamish. Thank you for teaching me how to receive with grace.
I Am Still Born 