I felt so inspired today. I met another mum whose daughter was stillborn ten years ago. Her strength and courage is amazing. It is so nice to share stories and talk about all the hard times but also lessons from our precious children. I find when I talk to people after they have lost a child there is a clear line drawn in their life. Before and after they lost their precious little one are very different. They wake up with more gratitude. The innocence of birth is very different. Sometimes there is more anxiety than before. Sometimes there is more trust. The way they show up in the world is with more conviction in everything they do. They know not to sweat the small stuff. They know what is truly important. I think all of us could have gone through life without the lessons of losing our children. We have how ever survived and lived our lives to the fullest after. We have more presence and know that all we have is this current moment. I feel blessed that Hamish is my biggest teacher. I feel grateful he choose me as his mum. I know my future children will benefit from his legacy. From the new person I have become.
I love you my boy. I could feel your presence at lunch today.
I Am Still Born 