It has been one day since I officially released my eBook on ‘Navigating Baby Loss’ and it has already reached four families who have recently lost a child. My purpose was to help others feel less alone and I hope anyone that is going through a loss can get something from the words in my book. I feel so proud that Hamish guided me to write this. He gave me the courage to trust my intuition and to write from my heart. This blog is also guided by him. I always check in with him to see if things are a good idea. Before I agreed to do a video telling our story with Gidget House I asked him if I should do it. He said of course Mum! The more you talk about it and share our story the less of a taboo it will be. It is a hard topic to talk and write about. When it becomes your reality though that is all you want to do. I did a live video online this morning talking about my why behind the book. I spoke about how I want parents going through loss to feel like there are others thinking of them on this journey. When we go through anything in life it is important to not feel like we are on our own. Sometimes when you lose a child you feel very isolated from your friends and family. Not because they aren’t supportive or they aren’t there for you it’s just that they don’t fully understand what you are going through inside. You feel confused, frustrated, lost, insecure, grief stricken, heart broken all at the same time. To have others who get it means so much. To be able to read similar stories of loss allows you to feel less alone.
Hamish you are my guiding light always. I will turn to you when I need help. I will smile when I know you are around. Today when I did the live video and the kookaburras were singing and laughing loudly I knew it was you saying hello.