I ran into the ocean as soon as we walked on to the sand. The sun was still rising above the clouds. I am so grateful for this day, this beach, the ocean. Swimming in the ocean takes me into full presence. As I dive under each wave I am in the here and now. Today Greg and I are diving into the Awaken workshop with my friend Adam Rubin. It is a workshop focusing on ceremony, breath work, meditation and movement all to bring us back to our truth.
Today was all about love. In the cacao ceremony I felt my heart open more than before. I focused on letting go and sending loving kindness to myself and all of those around me. I truly believe how we treat ourselves is a full reflection of how we treat others. If we put huge expectations on ourselves to be perfect we probably do that to our family and friends. If we have negative self talk all the time and are critical of everything that can also lead to us doing that to others. I want to love every cell in my body. I am grateful each day for all that I am and all the love that surrounds me. The meditations and ceremonies today reminded me to come back to this always. I don’t have to be a perfect weight or look a certain way before I accept myself, I don’t have to have a fancy job or booked out business before I feel successful, I don’t have to be everything to everyone. I can show love and be love. I can make a choice of love over fear in each moment.
It was such a beautiful group of people who came together for the workshop. All for different reasons and in different stages of our lives. One thing we all connected deeply on was being authentic and vulnerable. It takes vulnerability to build trust. You have to break down the walls and allow others to truly see you. Greg showing up today and sharing his truth was so encouraging to watch. I was in awe of him as I knew this was well out of his comfort zone. It makes me so happy to know he is committed to forgiveness, growth and pushing past fear. I see him in a new light today. I see what is mirrored back to him from the others in the group. I am grateful that this wonderful man is my husband and we are on this journey of life together.
Hamish I felt you there with us today. I know you are watching down over us and want us to keep learning and growing in this human life. We thought of you a lot today and shared you with the group. I had your picture with me to remind me of the love you radiate. The love that flows through me.