I filmed at video for Gidget House today. I told our story and explained how much talking to others about my emotions and grief has really helped. When my life was turned upside down on the 9th of September last year I needed everyone’s support. Greg, my family and dear friends, our angel social worker Deb and then my psychologist. When you are walking down one path and it all turns to sh*t (excuse my French) you feel so lost. I didn’t know how to grieve. There is no guide to this kind of thing. I didn’t know how to deal with our loss or the stress it had put on my body. The only thing I did know how to do was talk. I have always been good at expressing myself that way. I did have to learn how to cry though and be more vulnerable. In order to get the support I needed I had to speak up. I had to allow others in. The day after I gave birth a little voice in my head said you have to write how you are feeling down. Do it each day. This blog has been another one of the tools that have helped me on this path. I am still learning how to grieve. Getting sick I was worried I had held on to some emotional stress which lead to the shingles. Who knows though I am trying my best to be kind. Sometimes our bodies have to let stuff out in different ways.
Hamish I could feel you there supporting me as I spoke about you in the video today.