Ok universe I get your message loud and clear. I need to slow down. Just because I meditate daily doesn’t mean I can go go go all the time. Even though I don’t feel like I’ve been doing too much maybe I have. I am listening in now and tuning into whatever is in store for me. I don’t want to be unwell and I know lots of rest will help me recover. I still can’t move one side of my face. This is not ideal. From what I’ve read this isn’t something you get over in a few days. If it takes a while I promise to listen and take things slow. I will honour my body the best way I know how. I will continue to nourish it with healthy food and movement each day. I will wake up grateful for all that I have. The drugs they have given me are working and I am not in constant pain now. I feel like I am on the mend. Spending some time in the sun today was also nice. I am making sure I get out for some fresh air each day and have a little walk around. Just being careful not to smile at anyone with my half crazed look that I’ve got going on right now!
The nurse asked if I had been under any stress lately. I said not really just a cold. I told her about you Hamish and she looked at me with sad eyes. I told her it’s not stress it’s grief. My love for you grows stronger each day. The little black butterfly I saw in the hospital gardens today was a nice reminder you are close. I know you are watching over me always.
I Am Still Born 