It is a full moon tonight in Virgo. Hamish is a Virgo so tonight I am thinking of him even more. Greg and I decided to have a quiet night at home. We ate dinner on the rooftop of our apartment block then decided to go up later when it was dark. We lit a candle for Hamish and meditated under the full moon. Greg isn’t really into meditation but he will give it a go every now and then. We did some candle gazing first before doing a silent meditation. I know I could feel Hamish up there with us. The moon was hidden from us by the thick grey clouds. Once our meditation was over we opened our eyes to the brightness of the moon, it was peaking out behind the clouds. I let the tears roll down my cheeks. I told Hamish last night how much I love and miss him. That I hope he is in a good place. I hope that he is safe. When we went to bed my heart was racing. I have had this feeling most nights this week. Dr Google tells me its normal. It just means my sympathetic nervous system is on alert. I used some lavender oil on my chest and it helped me fall asleep.
Hamish I love you so much
I Am Still Born 