Today was my first meditation at home. I needed to make sure my bedroom was clean before I started. I bought a gorgeous meditation pillow to sit on from tree of life and set up my little area. I had Hamish’s urn next to me. I felt so much peace during this meditation. It took me a while to settle in and find my stillness. When I got there I felt a calm come over me. I realised how grateful I am for everything around me. Coming home after three weeks traveling has made me even more grateful. The grass is greener. My bed is even more cosy. My apartment feels like a warm hot chocolate on a cold night. Being home feels like a warm hug from a loved one. I think mainly as Hamish’s ashes are here. This was the second home he had. We moved in when I was 35 weeks along. I am also pretty sure his soul left my body here. It is where his ashes now lay.
I can feel his presence in spirit around me. I know he wants me to live my best life. By best life I mean to follow my heart. To listen to that intuitive nudge when it comes to making decisions. To spend each day on this earth doing something that makes me burst with happiness. To be of service the best way I know how. I intend to use my souls purpose to help others own their worth. Through speaking, coaching and my writing.
I want women especially to know their worth. To not give away their power to another person or object. For them to be fully in their own power and to know that another person just compliments that. That no amount of money or stuff will free them. True freedom is being yourself always. Being able to freely express who you are. To have enough security, shelter and food to cover your basic needs. To be able to give freely to others without expectation of something in return. To be able to receive love and gratitude from others. To be whole and connected to the earth, universe or your god.
Hamish help me live a fearless life as my true self.