We drive down the lavender sprinkled streets with the jacaranda trees in full bloom. I turn and look at Greg and take a deep breath while he is driving us to our support group. It’s our second one and I don’t know what to expect. I know I feel much more peace than I did a month ago. I still feel apprehensive about entering the room. Mainly because last time I took on so many other people’s pain. I walked out of that room with my heart broken into a million pieces.
Before I walk in I tie an imaginary bow around my heart. Just to ensure it can stay in one piece and be protected when I enter the room. This time it’s a much smaller group. About half of last time. We have all met before so there are no new stories. Today is much calmer and it gives me peace knowing these beautiful souls understand my pain. I speak openly knowing they listen intently wrapping me in so much love.
Most of the group meets for lunch afterwards. We are bonded by our little angels. Although we may all be different we have so much in common. I know our little ones were watching over us while we had lunch yesterday. They watched us laugh and play and just enjoy each other’s company. Sometimes when you go through this your afraid to laugh and have fun. I’m so glad I could find these other amazing people to walk beside Greg and I earthside while we navigate what life means for us now.
Thank you Hamish for bringing us some new special friends. I know you and your new angel friends are all up there having fun together. Please know that your mumma is learning to have more fun now too.