We celebrated two special birthdays today. One was our little friend JC’s birthday who turns four on the same day of Hamish’s birthday. We went to a little community centre and played in the sun, ate way too much fairy bread and soaked up the last of winter. We then headed to my great Uncle Don’s house to celebrate his 99th birthday. I am in awe of Don as he still has his sense of humour. He doesn’t miss a beat. While he may need a couple of walking sticks to get around it doesn’t stop him from living a pretty independent life. My great grandmother Jessie had five kids and Don was the fifth. Unfortunately she passed away from the Spanish flu not long after Don was born. I can’t even begin to imagine what it would of felt like for her to leave her kids behind while they were so young. I feel a deep connection to her and I know she is one of my guardian angels watching over me. I also believe that trauma can run through the maternal line and we have to be aware of things that may need to be healed that we have carried from our mothers, grandmothers and great grandmothers genes and cells. I have had some kinesiology sessions to clear the energy from my own birth and Hamish’s. I want our little one to feel safe in my womb.
I love you Hamish. I could feel your presence around me today.
I Am Still Born 