My heart is feeling a bit sad today. I am so grateful for the life I have now. Some days though I just feel a little down. I know this will pass. It is ok for me to feel down. I think the down days are much more far and few between compared to the first few months, after Hamish was born. It is easy for me to fall back into old habits, where I tell myself to harden up and be stronger. It isn’t weak though to feel your feelings. It is crazy that it took me thirty three years to figure that out. I had to have my life turned upside down for me to realise how I wanted to live. How life is a rollercoaster. You can’t just stay at one even pace and just feel ok. Some days will be easier than others. I am allowing myself to cry when I need to. Feel down and just be in this sadness. I know it is just natural for me to feel this way. I am done with trying to always fix it. Some days I even google how to get through grief? How to grieve properly? The reality is we all grieve differently. We all have different feelings and there isn’t a right way to go about it.
Sending you so much love today. Thinking of you always.
I Am Still Born 