I am here alone in bed. Your daddy is up in Darwin working for a few days. It’s been a strange evening as I feel uneasy. I decided to have some alone time and just chill out. I have got a lot done today. I have hired a wonderful editor in the UK for my book on Navigating Baby loss. I have answered emails. I had an initial consult with a prospective client. I have also had some down time reading and chilling on the couch. I’m lying in bed now and I feel a surge of energy in my body. My heart is racing a little and I don’t know why. It feels a little like anxious feelings and butterflies. I decide to do some reading before I go to sleep. I scroll Instagram and I know this is probably not going to help me fall asleep.
I want more than anything to do be present in my days. I want to choose things that my soul is jumping up and down for in delight. I know that will require saying no to some things and a hell yes to others. I have been peeling back the layers and working on upgrading my subconscious beliefs that have been driving me for most of my life. I am working daily on discovering what I need to let go of. One thing i am letting go of is anything that feels like an obligation. If it is within my control I won’t do it. I’m so sick of being that person that always compromises. I don’t want to anymore. I am promising to live in alignment. I am giving you permission to put your alignment first too. Be brave and embrace your alignment.
Hamish I love you to the waxing moon and back