Life is wonderful. At the same time here I am on a flight home from Melbourne bawling my eyes out. I am sat next to a sweet American family of 3 with a 8 month old boy. He kept grabbing my arm and giving me big smiles. It’s hard to see what my life was going to be like. It’s hard to not think of Hamish and miss him. It’s hard to swallow back the tears sometimes and be ok with where I am at today. I am doing well. I had the most amazing week. I am so blessed to have the most amazing soul sisters around me. Supporting me, listening, and giving me permission to be me. I do still feel sadness and my heart is heavy at times. I am not going to judge myself for crying in public though. I would have never allowed myself to be so vulnerable before. It turns out the gorgeous little boy Koa had a pretty traumatic entry to this world as his heart rate dropped dramatically and they ended up getting him out through an emergency C-section. His mum shed some tears with me as I think she knew the fragility of birth and pregnancy. How it doesn’t always go to plan.
Lastnight was the beautiful you coaching academy awards. Basically the oscars for my coaching academy. I had a special night connecting with coaches from all around the world. I got loads of hugs and met some special women whom I had only spoken with online through instagram and Skype. I got to see my friends speak, receive acknowledgement as finalists and also win some awards. It was so heart warming to be there and connect in person with so many beauties. I feel like I am on the right path when it comes to coaching. I know I can make a big difference in women’s lives through it. I know how much it changed my life for the better. It helped me believe in myself and my gifts. It allowed me to feel ok with coming out of my shell. It kept me accountable when I needed to be. Coaching literally changed my life and helped me get in touch with who I truly am.
Hamish I love you