I went to a yin yoga class today and that had lunch with one of my soul sisters. I also spent sometime working on my business. I cooked myself a nourishing dinner for one. I lit the candle in Hamish’s urn and I sat down and watched ‘Married at First Sight’. Overall though I had a really fun, chilled out day. This week has been full of play and fun, soulful connections and conversations. A part of me is asking can life really be this fun. I haven’t felt this happy in a long time. We made it through six months without Hamish here physically. I feel a sense of freedom now. I have a fresh perspective on life and I am really happy. The sadness sometimes bubbles to the surface but I am genuinely living mostly in joy.
I did some journalling today. I asked my soul what it wanted. It was very clear. It wants me to be free. Free to do what I am passionate about each day. To live a life in alignment with my values. I then did some journalling around pleasure. What is pleasure to me? How do I cultivate it in my life now? How do I feel when I allow myself to feel it? It was quite simple. Connecting with nature and my loved ones. Being free. Swimming in the ocean. Long walks on the beach. Dancing. Kissing. Moving my body. Listening to music. Writing and working on my passion projects. These things all bring me pleasure. A part of me still thinks pleasure is a pay off for working hard though. You can’t have one without the other. Almost as if pleasure comes after pain. I don’t want to buy into this. I want to have pleasure in my life daily. I just listened to the Priestess Podcast and Julie Parker interviewed Susana Frioni on this exact topic. I was thinking yes I know this is now a priority in my life. I want to feel more pleasure than I ever have before.
Hamish you have brought so much joy into my life.
I Am Still Born 