I have realised now that I don’t need to have it all figured out. I can wake up each morning in gratitude for the life I am living. I am at peace with my life. I know that I am where I am meant to be. I know that all I can be is love. I need to be kind to myself and others. I need to treat myself how I would treat a friend. Self compassion is so important especially when your on a healing journey. I spent so much of my life people pleasing and making choices out of fear before. I chose to do things out of obligation instead of wholeheartedly wanting to do them. I am making a promise to myself to be present each day. To tune into what my soul needs and to make choices out of love for myself. If it is fear or ‘a should’ that wants me to do something then I will acknowledge it for what it is. I will accept that I can’t always get it right. I can however be the best version of myself possible. I can be of service and follow my passions.
I have two things calling me right now. One is to help women through their grief. I know it can’t be fixed with a magic pill. I do believe though there are things that can help women who are suffering after losing a child. I believe if I can share my story then I can hopefully help a few others going through this. I am also being called to help women back to the present moment. To be able to live a more fulfilled meaningful life. To slow down and tune in to themselves. To be intentional with their time, money and energy. To live a passion filled life where their know their worth. I believe I am here to spread this message of love and kindness to ones self. I have had many lessons along the way. I am still very much learning myself. I have realised now though, all it takes is small actions that can lead to massive changes. I am going to run beginners meditation classes. I am opening up my coaching books for one on one clients also. I will finish the book and have the first draft done in the next two weeks. I will also continue on my own healing path. I am working on being more loving to myself.
Today I went into my office for the first time in six months. I felt so much emotion walking in there. I am extroverted and I work with many people in my business. I have formed so many close friendships over the past 12 plus years that I have worked in my company. It was tough walking back in and I couldn’t help myself but be overwhelmed by tears. I got lots of hugs and also smiles from everyone. I know they have all been sending their love my way. I know I am lucky to have amazing work friends. They all put in for a big food delivery voucher for us so that we could have dinners made without having to worry about them. While I don’t know what the future holds when it comes to my old corporate life. I am grateful for all the love and support I have had over the years. I am also grateful for the friendships I made and still have today.
Hamish thank you for surrounding us with so much love and care.