I woke up feeling peaceful this morning. We decided to go for a long walk down to the water near our place. I think of Hamish and our life. I am so grateful we have the life we have. We are blessed in so many ways. Yes we had a rough start to parenthood and we miss our son but now we can start to look to the future. I know each day I need to keep trusting that everything will work out. I can be very impatient at times and I like to get things done quickly. When it comes to organising my life I am not great at always ‘going with the flow’.
Having time off has allowed me to be more patient. It has allowed me to trust everything will work out. Ultimately we don’t have full control over what happens to us we can only control how we react. This release of control is tough. To allow the universe to have my back. To trust my intuition will continue to guide me in the right direction. It’s been four months since I finished up for Maternity leave. These four months have allowed me so much time to think, see, feel and experience new possibilities. I am no longer thinking the way I used to. I am much more open to allowing things to unfold. I want to make sure I don’t fall back into the same old traps. I want to keep this new perspective and way of thinking.
Thanks Hamish for this gift. I know I needed to continue to surrender to what this life brings.