We had our third support group today. It was really sad. It was nice to see our lovely social worker but hard to also hear more stories of loss. While having the comfort of other angel parents is wonderful, it is also heartbreaking when you hear others stories. I wish none of us had to go through this. I wish I could bring all our children back. The only thing I can do is listen. I know all of our children want us to have a bright future. They are all watching over us hoping that we find some meaning in their life. They don’t want us to be miserable forever.
I don’t know if we will go to any more groups for a while. We are heading away for most of January and we are both starting to feel better. This week we have woken up with a smile on our faces most days. We have supported each other through our challenges. We have chosen to be grateful for our lives in most moments. We went to the beach straight from the support group and had a peaceful swim in the ocean. Being in the ocean keeps me grounded. It makes me feel so much peace.
We then had a lovely dinner with our angel parent friends. We are lucky to have them in our lives. The stories we share are so funny. How life is unfolding for us. We both have met with some spiritual soul readers and mediums this week. I think we are guided to seek our answers. We are guided to know more about how we can connect with our children. We have both been guided to meet with the right people at the right time. If I had heard what I heard this week a month ago I don’t think it would have sunk in. I am feeling so much peace tonight. I know we are all going to be ok.
Thank you Hamish for guiding us and being there for me each day.